El negocio del Mindfulness

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meditation

Me da risa que todos a mi alrededor me hablan de mindfulness.

De lo importante de la meditación individual para lograr la felicidad absoluta.

Creo que es importante meditar y respirar… pero hay mucho mas.

Hay que conectarnos con otros en la búsqueda de la felicidad.

Hay que conectar con natura para mantener la sanidad.

Pero el mindfulness se convierte en otro negocio mas.

Vivimos conectados con pantallitas de celulares

respondiendo e-mails y chats.

Y meditamos con el celular… y con las pantallas.

Y nos cuesta… y nos cobran por el mindfulness.

Vivimos en una sociedad tan narcisista

que pretende enseñar “happiness”con libros y ejemplos matemáticos.

Que pasa con las experiencias reales?

Que pasa con la espiritualidad compartida

y la naturaleza?

Mi mindfulness es menos yo… y mas natura.

Tal vez mi bipolaridad me hace ver lo que no es?

Pero en mi mente psicodélica y poco tradicional pienso

autenticidad, naturaleza, humildad y mas amor = Mindfulness

Silence: the song of the next age

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The lyrics of Black and White Year’s Up:

i’m afraid silence is the song of the next age.
what we don’t know won’t hurt us.
what we don’t know won’t keep us up at night.
what we don’t know won’t hurt us. but we don’t know.
what you don’t know won’t hurt you.
what you don’t know won’t have you terrified.
what you don’t know won’t hurt you. but you don’t know.
and you won’t know that you don’t.

Freedom 90

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George Michael fue un artista que siempre admire por su valentía y talento. En una época en donde ningún artista se atrevía a salirse del closet, George le abrió camino a muchos y en especial a sus fans, incluyéndome.  Gracias por darnos FREEDOM GEORGE!!!  Un himno muy especial para mi.

I won’t let you down
I will not give you up
Gotta have some faith in the sound
It’s the one good thing that I’ve got
I won’t let you down
So please don’t give me up
‘Cause I would really, really love to stick around, oh yeah

Heaven knows I was just a young boy
Didn’t know what I wanted to be
I was every little hungry schoolgirl’s pride and joy
And I guess it was enough for me
To win the race? A prettier face!
Brand new clothes and a big fat place
On your rock and roll TV
But today the way I play the game is not the same
No way
Think I’m gonna get myself happy

I think there’s something you should know
I think it’s time I told you so
There’s something deep inside of me
There’s someone else I’ve got to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Take back your singing in the rain
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man

All we have to do now
Is take these lies and make them true somehow
All we have to see
Is that I don’t belong to you
And you don’t belong to me yea yea
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve gotta give for what you take
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve gotta give for what you take

Heaven knows we sure had some fun boy
What a kick just a buddy and me
We had every big shot good-time band on the run boy
We were living in a fantasy
We won the race
Got out of the place
I went back home got a brand new face
For the boys on MTV
But today the way I play the game has got to change
Oh yeah
Now I’m gonna get myself happy

I think there’s something you should know
I think it’s time I stopped the show
There’s something deep inside of me
There’s someone I forgot to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Don’t think that I’ll be back again
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man

All we have to do now
Is take these lies and make them true somehow
All we have to see
Is that I don’t belong to you
And you don’t belong to me, yea yea
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve gotta give for what you take
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve gotta give for what you take

Well it looks like the road to heaven
But it feels like the road to hell
When I knew which side my bread was buttered
I took the knife as well
Posing for another picture
Everybody’s got to sell
But when you shake your ass
They notice fast
And some mistakes were built to last

That’s what you get
That’s what you get
That’s what you get
I say that’s what you get
That’s what you get for changing your mind
That’s what you get for changing your mind

That’s what you get
That’s what you get
And after all this time
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes
Do not make the man

All we have to do now is take these lies
And make them true somehow
All we have to see is that i don’t belong to you
And you don’t belong to me yea yea
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve got to give for what you take
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve got to give for what you take
Yea you’ve got to give for what you, give for what you give

May not be what you want from me
Just the way it’s got to be
Lose the face now
I’ve got to live I’ve got to live

 

Lithium / Olanzapina / Epival

Esta canción describe como me siento hoy a la perfección.

Los bipolares vivimos de constantes altas y bajas

de ADD… de no conexión en nuestro pensamiento

pero si hay una conexión…que nadie puede entender.

ni nuestros Shrinks!!  y es agotador!

Hay veces que el sentimiento de terminar es fuerte y asusta!

Con la medicina me siento mareada… me siento en letargo… me siento con sed…

hasta cuando este sentimiento de soledad?