Freedom 90

George Michael fue un artista que siempre admire por su valentía y talento. En una época en donde ningún artista se atrevía a salirse del closet, George le abrió camino a muchos y en especial a sus fans, incluyéndome.  Gracias por darnos FREEDOM GEORGE!!!  Un himno muy especial para mi.

I won’t let you down
I will not give you up
Gotta have some faith in the sound
It’s the one good thing that I’ve got
I won’t let you down
So please don’t give me up
‘Cause I would really, really love to stick around, oh yeah

Heaven knows I was just a young boy
Didn’t know what I wanted to be
I was every little hungry schoolgirl’s pride and joy
And I guess it was enough for me
To win the race? A prettier face!
Brand new clothes and a big fat place
On your rock and roll TV
But today the way I play the game is not the same
No way
Think I’m gonna get myself happy

I think there’s something you should know
I think it’s time I told you so
There’s something deep inside of me
There’s someone else I’ve got to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Take back your singing in the rain
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man

All we have to do now
Is take these lies and make them true somehow
All we have to see
Is that I don’t belong to you
And you don’t belong to me yea yea
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve gotta give for what you take
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve gotta give for what you take

Heaven knows we sure had some fun boy
What a kick just a buddy and me
We had every big shot good-time band on the run boy
We were living in a fantasy
We won the race
Got out of the place
I went back home got a brand new face
For the boys on MTV
But today the way I play the game has got to change
Oh yeah
Now I’m gonna get myself happy

I think there’s something you should know
I think it’s time I stopped the show
There’s something deep inside of me
There’s someone I forgot to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Don’t think that I’ll be back again
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man

All we have to do now
Is take these lies and make them true somehow
All we have to see
Is that I don’t belong to you
And you don’t belong to me, yea yea
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve gotta give for what you take
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve gotta give for what you take

Well it looks like the road to heaven
But it feels like the road to hell
When I knew which side my bread was buttered
I took the knife as well
Posing for another picture
Everybody’s got to sell
But when you shake your ass
They notice fast
And some mistakes were built to last

That’s what you get
That’s what you get
That’s what you get
I say that’s what you get
That’s what you get for changing your mind
That’s what you get for changing your mind

That’s what you get
That’s what you get
And after all this time
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes
Do not make the man

All we have to do now is take these lies
And make them true somehow
All we have to see is that i don’t belong to you
And you don’t belong to me yea yea
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve got to give for what you take
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
You’ve got to give for what you take
Yea you’ve got to give for what you, give for what you give

May not be what you want from me
Just the way it’s got to be
Lose the face now
I’ve got to live I’ve got to live

 

Lithium / Olanzapina / Epival

Esta canción describe como me siento hoy a la perfección.

Los bipolares vivimos de constantes altas y bajas

de ADD… de no conexión en nuestro pensamiento

pero si hay una conexión…que nadie puede entender.

ni nuestros Shrinks!!  y es agotador!

Hay veces que el sentimiento de terminar es fuerte y asusta!

Con la medicina me siento mareada… me siento en letargo… me siento con sed…

hasta cuando este sentimiento de soledad?

Olanzapina y Epival

Estoy con Olanzapina y Epival…

se me olvidan algunas  cosas y otras siguen allí como una maldición.

Mis manías parecen reducidas pero siento que la Olanzapina las activa.

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Mi cabeza vuelve a dar vueltas y regresan los demonios de ayer.

Los de Madrid,

Los de Costa Rica

Y los de Brazil.

Quién soy?

Me pregunto una y otra vez?

Me escondo en mi hueco de montaña

y decido que digan que soy Loca…

o Excéntrica.

Ellos no me entienden

estoy en una incesante búsqueda…

De qué?

esta allí… lo siento cerca… pero me aterra.

Sexo cosmico bipolar

El sexo en mania es Sublime.

Tal vez la cosmología bipolar me hace sentir mas

y veo estrellas de colores.

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Siento que nuestros cuerpos son uno y que en vez de dos mujeres

somos dos diosas  viendo al mundo desde arriba.

Todavía me asusto cuando no duermo

pinto, escribo, leo, y quiero más.

Me vienen entonces esos pensamientos de manía… de grandiosidad

soy especial desde mi nacimiento?

Casualidad o destino?

Mi mente es loca de noche y me asusta no dormir…

Tal vez solo tengo que dejarme llevar?