I have been in a roller coaster for years
Taking people that did not bought tickets to ride with me.
I have been building a roller coaster and with the years went out of control
I travel to keep the roller coaster going faster and higher
Im not sure where to go without my roller coaster.
I feel fragile
I feel ill
I miss them
I miss you
I miss me.
And i feel ashamed of my past words and actions
I feel that I cant ever look at them or you again
And is killing me
Because I love you.
I know it was only a fantasy
In my head
But it feels so real for moments
It felt like home.
Now I feel that I want to ended
To be horizontal with the grass and the flowers
Because Im so ashamed of me with them…and with you.
now I hate the roller coaster and want to get out.